When Your Heart Screams, “I Can’t”

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My heart screams, “I can’t”
My emotions swirl.
My mind does not know or understand.
And yet,
Deeper than any of that,
I know,
Emmanuel is and will be
With me.
Life IS too much at times.
A certain situation is too much,
All the time.
But we all will have those times,
The Instruction Book,
Tells us what to do.
Call on the LORD.
He, Who hears our heart’s cry,
Even when we have no words,
Hears and comes with healing,
Love and
Psalm 18:6 In my distress I called upon the LORD; to my God I cried for help. From his temple he heard my voice, and my cry to him reached his ears.
Isaiah 65:24 Before they call I will answer; while they are yet speaking I will hear.
Psalm 61:2 From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

Next Moments of Life



From The Heart of Abba

Isaiah 46:4 Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.

We may not know what our next moment will hold. But we DO KNOW who will be holding us in our next moment.

You may indeed feel overwhelmed
But you shall not BE overwhelmed

I am with you
I do not abandon you

Not when you feel distant
Not when you feel overwhelmed
Not when those pesky emotions
Pop out like a jack in the box
Not when you are falling apart
Or withdrawn
Or being sucked at by that vortex

I AM is still Emmanuel
In every situation of your life
Past present and future
I AM has always and forever will be

Beloved that does not depend on who you are
Nor choices you make
Nor what any other may think, say or do
It DOES totally depend
On the sure and certain truth
That I AM who I am
I will do as I say I will do

Beloved you belong to Me
And I AM all you need

Even when it does not seem true
I am Still I AM

God Will Supply

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From The Heart of Abba Today:

I am God With You.
No matter what is going on,

When your storm feels so very big,
I am in the midst of it with you.

When life is calm and simple,
I am there with you.

It matters not the season of life, or the circumstances surrounding you.
Your only task is to enter My Presence.

The invitation is to come,
Just as you are,
In order to receive all you need,
In every moment of life.

Truly, Beloved, it is My desire,
To supply ALL your needs,
Your true heart needs,
From My storehouse of Glory.

Christ, Our Strength and Our Stronghold


I took this picture the other day over at my son’s house. These birds were flying around in the early morning and were still doing it in the evening.
At church this Sunday the worship was so refreshing, it was like being in a time of Oasis.
In a Bible study, by Beth Kinder we are reading a book called Stronghold. It’s about the ways God is our true stronghold. A “fortress” is aka a stronghold.

We were singing “In Christ Alone”. The last verse says: 
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand.

My heart began to hear:
It is in my strength you do stand.
You are right when you realize that at times and during some seasons your own strength is not enough.
But you, my child, are not limited to or hindered by your own strength or ability to stand.

In fact quite the opposite is true when you recognize that your own strength is surely not enough, then you are correctly prositioned and aligned for my perfect strength which is perfected in your weakness to manifest.

When you feel so weak that you literally need to fall. Do so. Trust that I will be there. I will hold you for a time.
I will freshen you then lift you up to enter life secure in my strength which is my love.

Additional verses:
Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Psalm 119:28 My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.
Eph 6:10 Finally be strong IN the LORD and IN his mighty power.
Isa 40:31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
2 cor 12:9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

Neh 8:10 Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”

Psalm 22:19 But you, LORD, do not be far from me. You are my strength; come quickly to help me.

Psalm 28:7-8

 The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.
8 The LORD is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.
Psa 118:14 The LORD is my strength and my defense ; he has become my salvation.
*Isa 12:2 Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.”
Isa 33:2 LORD, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in time of distress.
Isa 40:29-31

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORDwill renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Hab 3:19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights.
Eph 3:16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,
God is our SOZO Salvation… and part of that salvation is to be our strength but we have to let him and trust him and lean on him.



From The Heart of Abba

I am your Father.
I am Elohim, who created you
I am Emmanuel, God with you 
I am walking with you and I will walk with you.
You may at times feel unseen and
like you do not matter.
Not so.
I am El Roi, your God who sees, cares and is with you in all times and for all time.

Yesterday at church. I think the reading was Isaiah 43 and the phrase from it was….forget the former things…I am not sure what the reading was but Isaiah 43:18 does say, “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.” Verse 19a says, “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?”

I like the photo for the names of God. It is dark in places and at the top left there is one of those prism sort of rainbow things but on the bottom right there is LIGHT and the light causes the other parts. If there was no light the dark would just be black and kind of invisible. If there was no light that prism would not be there. Same for us. Same for me. Yes there are difficult things but the LIGHT is there and often others can see the Light of Christ shining in us even when we can’t.

Jesus Is:

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I took this Sunrise on the way to baby sit this week. The sun is in some ways like the Son. We can see the effect of sunrise in the sky long before we see the actual sun itself.
Do you think life is like that? Sometimes during hard times we can’t “see” the hand of God ourselves but others can see the effect and so can we if we are watching and waiting and expecting with hope.
The moon is always round (even when it doesn’t look so)
and day ALWAYS follows night
and Joy ALWAYS follows (and often is entwined in) sorrow.

Elohim, Creator God LOVES You

From The Heart of Abba Today:

You ARE mine.
I do LOVE you with an everlasting, unending, unconditional love.

Lean on Me,
Crawl in My lap,
Look for Me and
Look to Me.

As you live in that manner,
You will have all you need,
In every next moment of life.

Remember I AM is present in EVERY MOMENT, past present and future.
And I AM has all you need in each and every moment.
No matter what.
I am Elohim, Creator and nothing is impossible for Me.
When the Psalmist cried out:
“CREATE in me a pure heart, Oh God, and renew a steadfast spirit”,
He was speaking from his heart to the heart of Elohim (Creator).

Beloved, when life is too much, that is what I invite you to do also.
Call out to Me, the One who created you and I WILL hear and answer..

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a right and steadfast spirit within me.

1 John 5:14 This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.

Just Trust God

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From The Heart of Abba Today:

There is no place you go,
That is devoid of My presence.

I will guide you.
I will lead you.
I will enable you.

Your task is to simply watch for Me,
To lean on Me,
To trust Me,
To trust that whatever you need, I have it,
To trust that My desire is to give you exactly what you need,
In any given moment.

Because I love you and I am your Abba.

Note: We all have hard things in our lives. Sometimes we have a season that is hard. But on the hard days AND the easy days, we have the LORD on our side. He is WITH us, loving us.


God Holds My Hand

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From The Heart of Abba Today:
You know, many of us, probably all of us, have various trials and struggles. Sometimes we feel afraid. Often there is no valid basis for the fear but, we are afraid because we have never walked “this path” before.
Yesterday I took Kallen and Kason to the beach. Kallen is only 1 1/2 and he has never walked in the white soft powdery sand before. He has been to the beach, but not with this kind of sand. I could not push his stroller through that sand either. He wanted to come, he wanted to be with us, but he was scared. 

I sent his big brother (age barely 4) to “help him” and hold his hand.
That was all it took.

I was looking for a picture for a different verse but when I saw this one I was reminded of Isaiah 41:13. PERFECT illustration. 

Beloved, in that place of fear know this: Your Abba is walking with you, holding your hand. (smile)